Last night I had an unusual evening of feeling down…it’s very rare for me these days to feel depressed or down or anxious. Staying on a mostly raw diet with an infusion of high-octane superfoods keeps me in a mostly perpetual state of happiness. So what caused these negative emotions? A number of things happened yesterday but the main culprit is obvious to me: I had eaten a cooked meal including bread, cooked veggies, potato chips and a few other cooked items. My whole energy field went CA-KLUNK! (yes it actually made that sound!).

For the most part when I look around at people, I can see that most of them are anxious, mildly depressed and generally ill at ease in their bodies. Most have a constant source of bodily pain of some type…backaches, headaches, digestive issues etc. A surprisingly large number are on some sort of prescribed chemical cocktail. The other day me and my partner went to my sons school open house. There we were with a room full of parents. It was strange….I felt like I was in a room of old people…like I didn’t belong there. Were all of these people pretty much my age or younger? It was hard to believe. Generally we tend to hang out with people younger than us finding people our age to be quite mature (i.e. dull). Seeing these parents was further motivation for me to stay on the high vibe diet. I do not want to get old!!

So how even after that was I in a cafe yesterday eating a sandwich? Cooked food is addictive!! Very very addictive. If you’ve tried to eat all raw you’ll know what I mean. I find having an all raw partner helps immensely (she’s much better at not cheating than me). When I’m alone like yesterday I am much more likely to cheat. But I’m not going to get down on it…I’m on a journey and when I fall I get back up again. The important thing is that I do not do such things unconsciously…I was very conscious that the “food” was bad for me and that it would make me feel ill…for whatever reason, the impulse to eat and enjoy it was stronger than my fear of feeling ill. In retrospect it was of course not worth it to enjoy my sandwich for 10 minutes and feel crappy the rest of the day.

I did come to the realization (again) that cooked food ruins your taste for REAL (uncooked) food and eating ALL REAL food (98%+) ruins your taste for cooked food. This hovering at 80%-90% keeps me in a state of anxiety where I always have to make decisions on whether to cheat or not. When I’m a true raw foodist, I do not even have to think…I’ll look at the cookies in the bakery and of course say no because they’re cooked..or I’ll look at the food I’m making for my son and of course I don’t eat it..it’s cooked! I do not have to make constant decisions. So I am once again getting back up in the saddle and going for it. I will let you know how it goes!